Honestly, it was extremely difficult to follow the challenge this past week. I was distracted with work obligations, writing, and all the other things that come with being a wife and mom. I was scattered and my emotions decided to take a ride on the wildest roller coaster. I was emotional, moody and even said a few snarky remarks about my husband in front of friends at a gathering; I had to go back and apologize to them. I still owe my husband an apology as well.
I struggled this week and I’m still struggling to pull myself together and get my attitude in check. I need mercy (compassion & forgiveness) to engulf me today. Sometimes, we spend so much time focusing on how we were offended by our spouses that we place blame without fully examining our own hearts. Today, I am taking a look at myself and praying David’s prayer in Psalm 139: 23-24 which says “Lord, search me and know my heart. Test me and see if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way of the everlasting.” When we are more aware of our offensive ways, we are able to take our focus off of everyone else’s wrongdoing and put energy into changing our own hearts and attitudes.
I am beyond grateful for this challenge. It is providing practical ways to support, encourage and pray for my husband, even when I do not always feel like it. I am sticking with it and would love if you would continue to journey with me. Let’s continue to continue!
Spring and warm weather are here! I’m so excited about outdoor meals, playing at the park, visiting the zoo, short trips, BBQs, water park days, library outings and more! I am ready to explore the city with my little one! In fact we have already started creating a spring/summer to-do list (post coming soon on planning for summer activities).
One thing I have learned is that when you have a child who has eczema & food sensitivities, you MUST prepare for days away from home! There were times when I did not prepare and this is what happened:
My husband came to me and openly admitted that he could no longer carry the financial burden alone. I knew the day would come when I would need to return to work, but honestly, I wasn’t ready. I was most worried about entrusting my child to someone else’s care. I wanted to be home with her. I desired to teach, nurture, and create a fun environment of learning, instead of paying someone else to do it.
I was worried about adapting to a new work environment after being on maternity leave for well over a year. I simply did not want to return back to work…so I took my time applying for jobs. I didn’t put any real effort into it for months. But then I saw something that got my attention.
Thank you to Fabulous Frugality for nominating Courage From Within for the “One Lovely Blog Award!” Fabulous Frugality writes about living a beautiful and joyful life on a budget. As a part of the award, I’m encouraged to share 7 facts about myself and nominate/share other blogs that I think are worth checking out!
We are in full gear and have made it halfway through the 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge! For some of you, this challenge has been hard and daring. For others, this challenge has made your marriage sweeter and more intimate.
I want to encourage all readers to continue on with the challenge even if you do not see immediate results. The 2-3 week mark is typically around the time participants, myself included, start to lose interest in the challenge and let it fall by the wayside. Let’s finish this challenge with a bang and continue to encourage, love and serve our husbands. If this is the first time you are hearing of this challenge, we welcome you to join us at the halfway mark. Come along for the ride!
SNAPSHOT OF THE CHALLENGE:
- The purpose of the challenge is to encourage your husband!
- Your decision means that you truly want to be a blessing in your home.
- This challenge will also result in spiritual growth in your own life.
- For thirty days, don’t say anything negative to or about your husband. Also, say something positive to and about your husband each day.
I have posted days 16-20 below. Here is the link for the remaining days from Revive Our Hearts!
Tonight my neighbors’ music is blasting, but I don’t mind. I find myself swaying my head back and forth to the melodies as I think about my late grandfather.
The old school jams blaring from the speakers outside my window reminds me of when I was a young girl and my papa would play music from his record player. What I remember most is Sunday evenings when family would gather at grandma’s and grandpa’s house for dinner. Occasionally, Papa would come in the den after everyone had finished eating and break out his favorite dance that would make us all laugh. While dancing, he would mumble words that none of us barely understood because his mouth was so full of chewing tobacco, but we knew he was trying to get a silly reaction out of us.
One thing I know for sure is that my papa never got sick. I do mean, never. If he did, he hid it well. It’s like all those years of never getting sick caught up with him and took the life out of him all at once. I’ll never forget my grandmother calling me in early spring of 2008 to tell me the news I’d never expected to hear:
“Your grandfather has cancer. The doctors are saying he only has 6-12 months to live.”
I was in utter shock; we had never dealt with anyone in our family being terminally ill. I did not know what to do and so I pretended.
I have been contemplating for months whether or not I should share this story. It is one that I’d prefer not to tell because it exposes one of the most fragile areas of my life, which is my finances. I never thought I’d be in a position of financial strain, because my grandparents always taught me to save, pay off bills and invest. Unfortunately, post college life, I made poor decisions financially that are still impacting me today.
As I prepare to share with you, I am reminded of Brené Brown words that so often help me overcome the fear of sharing hard stories. She says, “vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.”